The blog

This is my blog and I want to write all the shit out and disclose it. I have not a lot of energy and I don't even want to drain energy. I have to do a lot, like make some questions for Thomas because I'm going to talk with him tomorrow evening, practice some songs, write a blog, learn some French, upload some songs. I try to drain energy from coffee and the only thing I want is drink beer and sit on the bench all day, not moving any muscle. And maybe I'm going to do that, even tho I know it will not improve my level of energy. What I can also do is go for a running or take a hike, learn French. There is so much to do and so much to learn, but I want to lay on the bench or lay in bed. I care about the people I'm living with, Gael. I care about Gael, if he will find a job as a waiter in the restaurant I'm working. I'm starting to sweat and at the moment I don't really know what will be best for me, what choice. I want to do the thing what's the best for me and the others. I want to make some music, make it a relaxed day, because why not? I don't have to do anything! The only thing I have to is be at work tomorrow at six o'clock. I want to sleep for a little while and read a book after. But I'm having a big cup of coffee beside me.

   Today at work was nice. I came into the restaurant and Kevin, Alex and July were already there. Alex is a funny guy. He teached me: 'tête le cue de vache,' something with a head, a dick and a cow, I don't know. He told me to suck my dick. 'I mean suck MY dick.' he said while a smile appeared on his face. But it was already too late; he sucked my dick. Thank you Alex. Pfff, I wish there was a nice girl right now to suck my dick. Yeaah, I really want my dick to be sucked right now, as my balls get more and more blue. I need somebody to suck my dick, just right now while I'm writing this blog. This is my blog and I have some thoughts and my muscles feel just tired and I don't know why or how. I just feel tired and I think I want to lay down for a little moment and write this blog afterwards. I know that there are a lot of things to do and to learn, and I don't feel like doing that because lack of energy. And I don't think this coffee will approve my level of energy, for the moment yes, but afterwards nope. I'm going to have a little siest.

So it's evening now, quarter past ten, and the news just came out that all the restaurants have to close due to covid. So it's fucking shit. I hope that we could still do delivery or something. We didn't do that before but maybe it's possible to introduce it at the restaurant. Tomorrow I will speak with Thomas about this idea. Maybe I'm going to call him right now because there will be some preparations for it; we need two cars and people who will deliver the pizza's. We can also do delivery, the menu of the day and every three days a new dish. I just hope that I can keep my job now that everything was just going to start rolling in the restaurant. Tomorrow I want to make a carrot tapanade with black olives, walnuts, truffels, olive oil, walnut oil, truffle oil and balsamico. It's going to be super nice! I'm going to call my boss. Well, I'm thinking of searching another job as well, or maybe go home for a couple of months and return to France after, to finish my trip. It's a hard desicion because there are more options possible. Options I don't want to talk about right now because they are just too exciting!

Btw, this afternoon I went for a little sleep with some nice music of Mozart. In the evening I went with Gael to the gas station to tank some gas and went to the supermarket and bought some stuff. Gael had his stomach aching and is thinking to go to the hospital soon, because he already has it since he was a child. He also wanted to work for the restaurant but for now that will not be happening anymore. So tomorrow I want to go to the restaurant earlier to make the tapanade I have in mind and to make maybe the pizza with rice boiled in coconut milk and and creme and raisins, make it a sweet pizza. Peut-être. I also want to film a song I want to upload on Facebook, tonight actually.